Friday, October 1, 2010

This might be a party pooper

Sorry for the lack of posts. Its not that I don't have anything to say that isn't blog worthy, its completely blog worthy. But my amazing mom always said "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all". I have been in a little funk for the last week, had nothing nice to say. So you ask what about the 2 weeks before that? Well, I soaked up every last minute of Jim I could...I should back up.
Jim came home from Qatar on Sept 1oth. The day before we had Tara's 3rd birthday party (maybe I will write about that later...) When he came home, we new it was going to be his last time home for a bit....a long bit. Jim and I have prayerfully decided for him to move to Qatar for the next 2 years. While we both were in agreement over this, It has not been easy since he has been gone. Jim is my best friend, my soul mate, my love. It hurts, and I am sad everyday he is gone. I miss him like a crazy person, yet I know this is a good thing, and he needs to be there. Right now is not the right time for us to go there as a family. I am not saying not ever, just not now. So for the 2 weeks from Sept 10th I soaked up every minute of him. Got my "love tank" full. We went on about 2-3 dates every week, cozied up in bed when the kids were at school, played hookie from work, and enjoyed each other. Now, I might be going thru with drawls! :) So this last week has been incredibly hard. I need to find a rhythm. Right now I just feel like I am walking in a fog. It will get easier, I will be able to manage, I will be OK, I will find a rhythm. Right now, I just need to breathe. I have a song that a friend of ours wrote from church. It says "Never alone, you are always here right by my side, I have nothing to fear, only you have made me worthy". He has made me worthy, for such a time as this.


  1. my heart hurts for you. I'm so sorry you're having a rough time, but I admire your strength, even though you feel weak at the moment.

    Hang in there <3

  2. I'm sad for you... I can't even imagine that length of time apart. Did seven months, but only Sun-Friday nights and that was hard with small kids. I am glad, however, that you spent so much time together... filling your love tank :)

    I tried to read back through but haven't yet found what exactly Jim is doing there...

    As for your question on our blog about Gracie's bus - - we live in Los Alamitos and she attends school in Buena Park - part of the Greater Anaheim SELPA. Not too far from you!

  3. I am so sad for you. I will try to be a better emial/blog friend and stay in touch more often =) I will also keep all of you in my prayers. HUGS!